I am a girl who continually learn bit by bit, step by step about life. Anyway,
Loves:
all about JAPAN, quitar♥, art (not fart), browsing, tweeting, frozen yoghurt, cheese cake, YOYO, new things, photography, cool-unique-comfy clothes, hoodies, converse shoes, Haruki Murakami's novels, Gaara (from Naruto), Bleach (anime), animes and manga (i prefer shōnen thou), pranks, clair de lune
Hates:
patheticness, hypocretes, betrayers, ginger, lebai teenlits, down connection, waiting, lightnings & thunders, sluggish PC, feeling guilty, being used, doing nothing, backstabbers, some smells
Hopes:

having my own laptop soon ✓

becoming a pro artist ♥

becoming a pro guitarist

visit Kinokuniya again

visit JAPAN

having a side-slider cellphone that makes tweeting easier

new classic guitar plus its equipments

purchasing riku-chan's necessarily cool equipments soon

Designer/ %PURPUR.black- with some edits frm me
Colour Code Icons

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Sunday, 23 May 2010 { 5/23/2010 06:12:00 pm }

Yes I know this isn't the right time to post a new blog. FYI, tomorrow should be Math and Sociology test, but here I am, blogging. Umm, I need to write down what I've been pondering about for this whole-past-week anyway..

So, about the guitar competition.. it is cancelled. Tragically. My trainer quit training me and so it automatically means that I would not ever experience that competition. A.. disappointment for me, but it is already happen. So 'let go' is not really a difficult word to be done about. However, I still love my guitar. Not having anymore guitar course doesn't mean not learning guitar furthermore. The difference is just that starts from now on, I'll walk my own path, alone. Without anymore guidance from my past training. I still wish I would post about how fun, how great my feeling is in the competition and furthermore about new experiences I get there, but it won't happen anyway..

Lately, maybe being influented by things I've captured with my five senses, I start to dream high. Real high. My dreams of being a successful person in the future, to be such an elegant, respected, professional-looking woman, has emerged more clear in my visualization. I mean in my mind, as I visualize. I can feel how satisfied will I be after I reach what I've been dreaming about. By dreaming more, the more I know that I have many purposes (hehe). By having those purposes, the more hope I plant. The more hope I plant, the higher my hope are, the more I see the beauty of this very world. And, by seeing how beautiful this world is, the more I love, life. Yes, at least I have a future.

I myself am tryin' to pursuit my own dreams by the way. Well, I hope the fact is the same as my opinion. Well I ain't really doing well at school.. Frankly said, my grades are sooo average (thou average is already good enough in my highschool) that they don't satisfy me. Despite of knowing this, I have never studied hard. What I've been doing all this time is--honestly--wasting my time with online activities, and play.. like now. Lately I ponder more about what's worthed to be done and not. Aand, you know what? I put 'school' in the NOT WORTHED list.

I wish I can transfer to Seattle's college faster. As I still try to make the best, here, thou.

Anyway.. random art-activities update. This is the current project I'm working on--colouring *yeay with low tone*. This is a request from Odi and this is only 80% of the total progress. Update soon. Enjoy the yellowness.

Labels: competition, guitar, music, personal, school life

Saturday, 12 September 2009 { 9/12/2009 08:16:00 pm }

Heya, it has been a very long time for me.. not to write again (what kind of blogger am I eh?). Now it has been about 2 months of highschool life, but I've missed JHS already..

I've just gone back from LDKS (which is a leadership training camp, that the participants are the chosen ones from classes. In my class, there were only 5 people chosen, including me, and we were chosen because of our above-class-average scores) and I was labeled as 'the quiet one' there. Yeap.. I didn't give much opinion there. I participated in my group, but my teammates are kinda ignoring my ideas, and focus only on their ideas, and that in those 3 days I was idea-less.. or blank. There was once, a reflection hours, led by facilitator of our group.. and her words were cornering me.. indirectly (I'm hurt for honest). Also in testimonial times what I got were that 3 of my teammates said "Don't just be quiet all the time. Talk", or "Shout ur opinion, don't be shy"..

Well, how to "shout out" my opinion when I've got no opinion or comment for any of the sessions?

Lately I often think much much longer before I decide on anything or do anything. I avoid mistakes. I felt like fish out of water within those 3 days. I told my close-classmate and she said, "How come you became a quiet girl that you usually are a loud, cheerful person??" I don't know either.. And now I have no interest to connect with my teammates..

After LDKS sumtimes I wonder, is it because my school is a quite-elite school, that for going out to mall a day would spent 50thousand rupiahs for minimum. That makes me rather rare to hang out with other not-close friends (my close-friends know about my economy condition)

Also lately I suffer from talking unclearly, sometimes babbling, and often wandering away (a state of not focus that makes us don't understand what is happening or what other are talking bout to us. kind of a half unconcious) Hey, what happened to me?

Labels: personal, school life

Sunday, 2 August 2009 { 8/02/2009 10:52:00 pm }

Here I'm back, again. Now I've been busy for weeks caused by school's lessons that makes me got really bad scores if I don't study hard. Not just studying.. Lately I feel so stupid.. Especially when it comes to counting things.. Not just stupid. Idiot maybe? And I've been stressed caused of that.. Cause the condition is that my highschool now discriminates..

Labels: personal, school life

Wednesday, 24 June 2009 { 6/24/2009 11:58:00 pm }

It has been a quite long time for me to not write I guess.. Haha. These days I've been.. too busy to write. Yearbook still haven't finished yet (omg), and I've spent lot of time practice my drawing skill ( I am a total NOOB!! My drawings--after I look it back, actually compare it to those artists' pieces.. eheheh) and refresh a bit.. I start--somehow, and this is under my conciousness--back to social life.. This morning I walked with wallmax crew to PTC, watched Transformer 2 (I still think the title is Terminator.. IT IS A TOTAL DIFFERENT BETWEEN THEM!! Yeah, my brain has messed around everywhere.. I can't think clear and sane again.. GOD, help me) and last night I misspelled the name Vanessa--a little girl in wallmax crew--Veronica. Baka no ryuu. Baka baka. I really have to cure or even reconstruct my brain

Also.. here is my final exam result. Not fully satisfied, but.. it's already makes me glad..

National Exam:
Indonesian Language 8.80
English Language 9.60
Mathematics 9.00
Science 7.75

Total 35.15 out of 40.00

(that's quite high.. but yea, I guess this year student's score around Indonesia are high upon the sky )

School Final Exam:
Religion
Written: 9.07
Practical: 9.60

Civics
Written: 9.11

Indonesian Language
Practical: 7.25

English
Practical: 10.00

Science
Practical: 9.85

Social Study
Written: 8.59

Art
Written: 9.26
Practical: 9.60

P.E
Practical: 8.50

I.T
Written: 9.38 (I was quite sure that I made it perfectly.. So, I made mistakes??)
Practical: 10.00

Javanese
Written: 8.56
Practical: 10.00

Mandarin Language (or you can say Chinese)
Written: 8.56
Practical: 8.60

total for written 62.90 out of 70.00
total for practical 83.40 out of 90.00

Ahaha.. I feel like my workhard for about 1 week wasn't a waste. Proud of it.

And because my scores are high upon the clouds (not the sky), my mom decided to buy me a new laptop (my dad still consider it as not enough. but my mom persuade him that my scores are already great, and he agreed to pay 50% of te price. khekhekhe). I haven't got it yet, but I've survey the types, think over the price, examine whether it has core 2 duo processor, high vga card, high RAM, high hardware capability, high vista or not, bluetooth, and so on.. I've marked several types which fulfill my requirements. Later when there's already the money and time, I would like to go to the shop.

Last thing.. my insomnia (and brain concetration and sanity) is getting worse. Two days ago I couldn't sleep for a whole night till morning.. In the morning, I took some photos from the rooftop. I submitted one in dA. But it went into Scraps category (i've edit it 3 times--even more, but it didn't change the category!!! I even changed the title!! But it still in Scraps category until now :tsk:)

Btw, I've add some emoticons there!! . But it still like not satisfying enough for me that these emoticon system is not yet efficient.. it has no code system that make it typeable.. also the emos are not having complete expression types.
I'll edit it and improve it soon. Life is flat w/o emotions

Labels: codes, deviant art, laptop, school life

Saturday, 6 June 2009 { 6/06/2009 03:31:00 pm }

I've been surfing the deviantart, to check out sasha's (an artist in deviantart) artworks. Cuz I got her tutorial, and wonder how her artworks are.. and, I found this journal, written by also an artist there, kuridoki (the username).

Here, I quote her journal..

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Updates and Ramblings

Ever had the experience of looking back at your old work and going "Oh god, the SHAMEEEE"? I imagine most artists go through this stage once they've hit a certain level of experience. But, honestly, it's also one of the most fun parts of being an artist too, I think.

But let's take this a step further.

I don't know how many of you might feel like I do when working on a piece. But I'll just simplify it for now:

Step 1:

Rough sketch work, gets you pumped up for working on the piece. Feels good, man. lol

Step 2:

Start your line work, or whatever your work process involves. There's still a good feeling of excitement and anticipation.

Step 3:

You've gone in pretty deep into the work. But as you stare at your piece for hours and hours, little bubbles of questionable feelings start appearing.

Step 4:

You've finished the work. And you're pretty damn happy. It's your most detailed piece yet.

Step 5:

You keep looking at the work. Slowly, little mistakes and disparities start popping up. You never realized them while working.

And thus starts the slow decent into madness. You start getting more and more unhappy with the work until you can't really remember why you liked it in the first place.

You start a new piece eventually, go back to Step 1, rinse and repeat.

Different people will probably experience this to different levels, I don't know. Depending on how positive you are, you could see this as a source of motivation in improving yourself, but on the other hand you'd never be satisfied, ever.

Any of you ever felt like this? I imagine a few of you might.

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Yeah, I have. Lol.

Right now I am living the prophet which says:

The grass is always greener on the other side

In my case, I see peoples.. my friends, seems like having more talent, in art, also in guitar.. than me. I don't know the fact. Well, the fact is that, now I'm feelin I am not good enough in drawing. And evenmore in guitar. But, I guess, from kuridoki's journal up there, it is normal. It is.. human. Humans never satisfy. And I am a human :)

I hope I can online more.. and become more active in deviatart. I really love art.. and interested to art community.

You know.. I've foud maaaaany talented young artists in deviant. Cool. And, not that I want to be in list of young talented artists (omg. I guess I have to practice my grammar.. MORE. << see.. I have no idea it is a right order of adjective or not. Heheh. Nvm) but I want to draw better and better and make prints in such a young age. That I'm now.. almost 15. Grreat. I'm growin older. Hahah. In other side, I can't wait for highschool~

New environment, and new friends I guess.

Oh well.. I found another deviant to deviantwatch added =3

Labels: deviant art, school life

Wednesday, 20 May 2009 { 5/20/2009 10:38:00 pm }

heya, I've just back from farewell camp. The camp was fun. Really.
The most fun part is that I can have pictures of unique sleeping style photos. Lol. But I captured them with my friends' cameras, so.. to have those photos to my computer I should wait for my friends to tag the photos online at facebook =p

Another thing from camp is, that 90% of Gloria JHS' 9th grade is actually soft inside. There was one session that all, including boys, and male teachers, cried a lot. Owh man.. yeah.. at first I thought, there's no need to cry cuz we'll still able to contact everybody by technologies the world've made. And also that.. life is movin on.. people come and leave. So.. this thing didn't affect me.. but not at all. I was touched when I hugged the teachers as they cried a lot. Then.. no tears. I'm not the type of person who like to waste off my tears anyway. My tears are still usefull for my eyes. I ain't gonna waste my tears for no reason man.. and hate being fake even all this time I've being a fake. But I don't want to playin with feelings..

And I also performed ==".. But the performance was embarassing. I lost my face that second.. So I played duo with Yona, which was a guitar pro.. and he used accoustic-electric guitar while I used accoustic guitar. It looked like I was just showing that I can play guitar ==", cuz my guitar sound as I sure that won't reach the back seats. I had no face.. no face.. Till I wondered maybe I am too kind and too easy to be used by. Dummy me. Dummy nanas. *sob*

Tonight I also wondered.. maybe I am too cold to my friends. I can't share shoulders like they do. I can't fully trust them. I also wondered if I am worthed to beloved like that...

I am maybe too cold.. but that's me. That's the way I live. I don't hug except I'm forced to..

There is a law of take and give. I might give them hugs, but I don't need hugs. I prefer to live my life independently. It more comfortable for me..

Labels: personal, school life, stupid

Friday, 15 May 2009 { 5/15/2009 10:02:00 pm }

ARGH!! Feel like I'm gonna explode!! For several days I've been stucked in my own house!! I mean... no online, no money, no phone charge.. I'M HAVING DIFFICULTIES TO CONTACT ANYONE OUTSIDE MY HOUSE!!

However, my school final exam is done. I'm not 100% sure bout the scores, but.. I'm relieved. At least now I don't have to study and study, and also that I'll have more time to prepare for character design competition.

Btw, last wednesday, I went to an internet cafe to check my dA and Ymail. Then I read an offline message from my clan leader, said: jacket design competition
and this is UNUSUAL. U see.. my clan currently is just a virtual clan which means that I've never meet any of them (eventhough I might will meet one of them later in highschool. He'll enter the same highschool as mine T.T). And, by having those jackets alive, it means that this virtual clan will become a real-life community? Hmph..

And those jackets will be sent to our own houses and ..... *fainted*
hyper mode on, believe me.. I'm still half-concious O.O~

For ur information, I was already thinking of abandoning the clan months ago. Why? Cuz I thought I wanted to have a healthy social-life (and in fact, not so healthy rite now =="), also that I thought, having an online-only clan would waste my time and money.. Cuz by being online for my clan it means I've got things I have to do for clan (I'm an active member there, and once became a leader of a squad), and the most important thing is that being with my clan, was more fun than being with my friends in real-life, sometimes. Especially that... (hate to tell this, but..) I have an (embarassing) weakness that is related to boys.. ==".. which is being the reason why I don't have any boys as friend in my school except Jesse (but he is a girly boy, love fashion designing with sexy outfits ==").. Yeah, somehow I can't be friendly to boys. It has been my habit since I was elementary school, since the first time I knew 'crush'. All this time I've always wanted to blame that ugly-proudy boy but, I also know that blaming= useless, and I wont have this 'weakness' if I don't makin it as a problem and react different.

Rite now, I really need somebody outside to talked to..

wishes:
-my phone refilled NOW w/ o delay >.<
-the facebook works
-my ebuddy works
-comic paper and 2H pencil fall to my lap
-a benQ or hp or even MacBook fall to my bed (heheh. It would be hurt if the fall to my lap XD)
-money rain
-a sane mind @.@

Ho yea, I remember about my friends' requests. OMG, I haven't finish any of both requests!! My target is this farewell camp (18-20 May). The design has no prob. I can work them up to morning (a bit insomnia+workaholic= insane. it is not healthy. seriously. actually I've recovered from insomnia. heheh), but the problem is...... the printing time. To print them I have to go to printing service, which actually is near my house, but it's open till 4 p.m only, that lately, I'm afraid I don't have enough time to fo that. First, it is all because of economic problem. My mom is currently out of money. She owed me 600k rupiahs. Second, my mom wont have time to pick me up to places I've got to visit. That is the cause why I often stucked at home with no internet except using my mom's dummy IM2. IM2, YOU ARE DUMMY DUMMY!! *get a hold of myself not to curse*.... another problem we have ladies and gentlemen~ =="

I guess I'll have to list all I must do these weeks. Soon.

Gonna check raditya dika's blog. Ja ne.

PS: *as if Lodi would read this blog XP. hope not.* sorry for not replying ur text msg. I'm currently out of phone charge or whatever it called in english. Gomenasaii to all including Huey-nii san. Heheh.

Labels: clan, competition, personal, school life, stupid

Monday, 11 May 2009 { 5/11/2009 09:16:00 pm }

Yeah, I'm in love.. haha. With who you may ask? With my new drawing tablet!! XD
So.. today I bought a new drawing tablet, and I am in process of learning how to use it.. heheh. Plus, the driver CD got Corel Paint X free trial. It was awesome (Corel Paint X). It has a colour mixer and types of brushes, special or painting digitally XD. Love it~

Up to this day, I'm still in final exam week. Not the UNAS. But school's. School's exam is quite easier than UNAS. Eventhough, I still have to study a night before to get good marks ==".. I wish I can learn and experimenting with my new drawing tablet more~ *sob*

Anyway, today, fortunately.. my mom allowed me to download some songs :). As you see, she has forbiden me to be online for this exam week.. T.T..

these are the songs:

Better Man - Robbie Williams
You can - David Archuletta

Somehow lately I enjoy slow songs.. Haha.. But they are worth to listened.

Post soon.
Ja ne and wismilak~ ^^

Labels: drawing, music, school life

Friday, 1 May 2009 { 5/01/2009 09:24:00 pm }

so.. this weekend.. is a gloomy weekend for me.. once again. So, since last weekend Bella, who was my close friend, made my flashdisk missed. I know from the beginning that she is totally careless.. but as a good friend, I lent her my flashdisk and I've told her to give my flashdisk back that day, sharp. But she forgot, and neither I. But I have many things to do! My time isn't only for concerning my flashdisk!! She should be rensponsible of it!!! Yeah, and in the next Monday, with puppy face she told me: "Nass, your flashdisk is missing! I couldn't find it anywhere!!" WTF?? Until now, I don't speak to her again. She thinks that my property is not important! If she thinks that it is important then she wouldn't miss it that easy. Almost all of my friends know that I'm not the type of person who easily lent my flashdisk..
Evenmore, when I came home last Thursday, I found my guitar had one of it's string broke.. Ohh man... Maybe now is my time to be on the bottom side of the life-wheel..

Today, I'm tired. Really tired. But I can't sleep. Yeah, sleeping seems like wasting time for me.. Workaholic you say? I'm not sure.. Haha..

So this morning I walked around 6km with Lydia and Pauline. Our destination was Rovina's house. Haha. It was fun, but exhausting. I think I'm gonna getting a flu.. Or maybe right now I'm having a flu... ==a

Hoa yeah.. about my final exam.. Now I feel like, the most important is that I pass. Now I'm not hoping for great marks. I'm not sure with my science. I'm afraid its marks wont pass the average score.. Maybe you would say that I'm so pessimistic.. Yes I am now. And? I don't know.. I hope this would not last for any longer. Me myself don't like myself now that now I'm so down, yeah.. pessimistic I say.. Like everything's ends are pointed to blame me.. Now I don't understand which is wrong and which is rite.. and which is human..

I'm confuse.. Once again, it's like I don't want to do anything.. Actually I want to buy "Yes Man"--Jim Carrey dvd. I really want to watch it. Interesting. But it seems I can't because tomorrow will be a busy day for me.. Janet's grandma died a while ago.. Tomorrow I'll come to the ceremony with Lydia and Pauline.. It's a must as a good friend of her.. And 5 p.m, I'll attend my friend's band competition. It will be her last performance before she fly to Singapore... It must be important lah! Is it that I don't hav time for myself? Well, what I call a time for myself is when I can watch dvd I want to watch, play guitar, exeperimenting with photoshop, drawing sketchs, being online and chat, and play games. But I can't do them rite now... Why? First, economy condition of my family. Dad always like groaning of it. Second, don't know why, when I'm free and have time to chat and so on.. my friends aren't online.. And I don't want to interrupt them with my gloomy aura..

About online.. I don't know if having online friends is normal.. Is it? Except you have foreign country friend. Like HoQ's--one of my friends--condition. She has maaany boy friends. And there she is.. unhappy. Umm, many boys of her 'friends' are making her as a toy. And, I don't want that happen to me. Ever. So, I want to prevent it.. but it seems like my way to prevent isn't right. And, I wonder if having online friends can make us rather unsocialable.. You see.. when online friends seems more than your real friends.

I am in confuse..

Labels: friends, personal, school life, unique

Sunday, 26 April 2009 { 4/26/2009 09:38:00 pm }

This morning, I was baptized! Man! It was an unforgetable moment, for me. So, first thing in the morning was, that I was late.. ==".. Actually a bit (I was about 10minutes late =p). And I wore a black t-shirt with black shorts. Imagine how dark my appeareance was!! Inside the car, in our way to our destination, my mom was angry to my dad because she feels that my dad wasn't care at all that me, the first children in the family, baptized this day. She said that this is an important moment so he must not miss it by not bringing a camera. Well, that is one of reasons we were late. The second thing was, that I had a headache ==".. It was a pain. I think it was because last night I stayed awake till 3 a.m.. Tomas, my friend from Slovenia was online, and it has been a loooong time that we haven't chat! That's why I was still awake till 3 a.m.. just to chat with him. Haha. But, I ended up having a headache =="...

Back to my baptizing moments.. so, I felt that I wasn't ready.. I couldn't freely sing along.. I wasn't ready because I recalled all my sins and I felt that I'm not worthy to be baptized.. You see.. I blamed myself for everything I've done, and the worst part: I couldn't forgive myself. Then, evangelist in front told parents to pray for their children. At first, I thought my mom and dad wont come and pray for me. Especially my dad (thinking that he wasn't care this morning). But I was wrong. The first one who came to me was my mom. She touched my shoulder and pray. I cried.. and it wasn't ordinary tears. I cried till almost making sounds. The bad and heavy tears type. Not long after that, my dad came. I was relieved. I saw my friend, Immalia, who was on the right side of me, had nobody to pray for her. Her mom didn't attend. I felt sorry for her. I was grateful to Him. Then I was baptized and it was time for changing clothes. I planned to not taking shower there and just changing my clothes instead. Unfortunately.. ohh mann.. Because I didn't change my unders (which was my stupidity that day), my dry T-shirt that I wore was wet and making a shape of my ***!! It was a stupid thing and it was embarassing.. By time passing my T-shirt dried quite fast.. But still, I was embarassed.

Aside of my stupidity today (hehe), tomorrow, precisely 8hours after this posting, I'll have my final exam which called UNAS (United Nation Association S***; << kidding XP).

I've studied hard, and now I'm hopeless. I'm confident enough to pass it, but not confident enough to make 9 for my average score.. Wish me luck.

Ja Ne~

Labels: school life, stupid, unique

Friday, 17 April 2009 { 4/17/2009 11:08:00 pm }

i had some browsing and i found this. interesting. good idea :)
however, arigatou gozaimasu raditya dika! ^^


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Kalau ada yang baca Harry Potter (and I’m sure lots of you do), pasti tau Dementor.
Heri dan Dementor
Bagi yang gak tahu, Dementor adalah “makhluk penghisap kebahagiaan” yang membuat korban mereka berpikir tidak akan bisa bahagia lagi. Satu-satunya cara untuk mengusir Dementor, Harry Potter harus mengeluarkan mantra yang bernama Patronus. Nah, untuk mengeluarkan mantra Patronus dengan baik, Harry harus mengingat tentang hal-hal yang ngebuat dia bahagia sambil mengarahkan tongkat sihirnya ke Dementor.
Heri dengan Mantra Patronus vs Dementor
Konsep yang keren banget ya?
To be honest, akhir-akhir ini lagi banyak Dementor di hidup gue; that means lagi banyak pikiran yang menggangu, yang ngebuat gue jadi down, jadi gak seneng, jadi males ngapa-ngapainnya. Dan gue akhirnya berpikir, untuk mengusirnya, gue perlu mengeluarkan mantra Patronus gue sendiri.

Maka, inilah mantra Patronus gue, atau dengan kata lain,hal-hal bahagia yang gue pikirin untuk mengusir Dementor gue:
1. Pergi bareng pacar ke tempat seafood (ngemilin kerang dara rebus! hahahah), nonton TV, atau cuman berduaan diem aja, our quality time together
2. Inget-inget lagi “Adelaide Ceria”, dan bagaimana senangnya kita dulu..
3. Lari sendirian di Senayan, gak ada pikiran apa-apa, ngeliatin pintu demi pintu kelewat..
4. Minggu pagi di Kemang sambil ngopi dan ngobrol sok berat tapi santai. Nge-quote Nietzche, Freud, Schopenhauer, dan mencoba untuk memahami “why we are so unbeliavable fucked up?”. Man, I miss pseudo-intellectual conversation..
5. Mendengarkan A Love Supreme - John Coltrane
6. Menonton Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind
7. Hari Minggu yang mendung, di mobil sendirian, lalu radio memutarkan lagu-lagu ringan..
8. Talkshow di auditorium dengan penonton yang asik banget..
9. Ngedenger nyokap gue bilang, “Paling engga, anak mama yang paling gede udah jadi orang.”
10. Momogi coklat & Pocky rasa pisang plusss Coca-Cola dingin yang es-nya agak cair.
11. Membaca email terimakasih dari pembaca, disamperin orang dan bilang terimakasih sudah membuat buku, melihat orang membaca buku gue di jalanan sambil melihat mereka ketawa malu-malu..
12. Duduk di pojokan sebuah jazz club di Adelaide bersama Darius, sambil melihat penyanyi amatir-tapi-bagus bernyanyi manis.
13. Nulis sambil tidur, dan besoknya pas bangun, ketawa ngebaca tulisan sendiri..
14. Makan indomie telor kornet keju jam satu pagi di warung deket rumah..

Gue jadi inget, gak selamanya gue bakal ada di dalam posisinya jelek. Gak selamanya bernasib buruk. Kadang, kalau kita sedih, kita berpikir, kita gak akan bisa ngelewatin ini… kita gak bahagia.. dan kita orang paling miserable di dunia ini. Dengan mengingat-ingat yang seneng-seneng lagi, gue jadi sadar, yah mungkin hidup gak selamanya di atas. Gue pernah bahagia, dan beberapa saat lagi I will get my spirit back.

Walaupun gak punya tongkat sihir..my Patronus charm works.Sekarang gue lagi senyum.
Apa mantra Patronus kamu?
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- copied from radityadika.com.

(now i decide to edit my posting than posting a new one =p)

i forget to tell ya.. today.. somehow my class was pointed to sing in monday indonesian-ceremonial, known as upacara bendera. all was groaning (including me of course! haha).. and the first lesson today was religion, which was free time. valerie and rovina told us that we better practice for the ceremony that lesson. but other aren't listening. especially the dummy class-captain, steven dummy (actually steven liman. he was a chairman of student council last year, often to be no. 1 in class, beloved by teachers and on and on. but he is a true idiot). i saw him sang the song, but he didn't even try to convinced everybody else to sing along!! and then i scold him. heheh. but, as i said. he is a true idiot. so he didn't mind valerie, rovina and i mad at him ==".. instead of that, i became the conductor. hahah. u know.. the one who leads the quire by showing the tempo. i wasn't pointed to.. but i signed up my self to be.. ==".. why? at first i thought by being the conductor, i wont have to sing. haha. i can't sing. but i'm good at tempo and guitar. but after finally this afternoon we rehearsed.... i think i've chose a wrong choice ==a.. hey, but being a conductor is quite fun. lol. see what'll happen in next monday.

it's already 11 p.m!! i have to sleep early. i wanna have morning jogging in the morning. ja ne~~

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{ 4/17/2009 10:28:00 pm }

haha. kidding. no way i would love yesterday more. as we are living this life, we have to be better from yesterday, each day. rite?
well, today.. i feel kinda lazy.. heheh. it feels like i dont really wanna do anything. including praticing my guitar. it is so different than yesterday~ (yesterday i wanted to practice my guitar soo much instead of studying mandarin and science =p)

well, it's already 10 days before UNAS (National Final Exam; i'm a 3rd grader of junior highschool rite now). i've stricted my self to not being online (read: chat), reading some teenlits.. well, doing everything i love the most!! i mean my hobbies =(
i even struggled to not watching monster vs alien, 3D in SuTos (argh!). that i want it so much. i believe that to reach something, we have to work on it. workin the best that we can do. and that needs sacrifice. but, the result will be as good as how we work on it. soo.. i'm struggling the devil inside me. lol.

uhm, nothing unique really happen today.. (that's one of reasons i'm getting bored)
i just wanna go to gramedia expo, and buy raditya dika's book: cinta brontosaurus.

heheh. i've wanted to buy it from last week. aaaand... i wanna join the yoyo club in TP. i also want to have japanese language course.. *wishing UNAS would pass faster heheh*

in the end.. wish me luck for this UNAS. Ja ne~

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