Friday, 15 May 2009
{ 5/15/2009 10:02:00 pm }
ARGH!! Feel like I'm gonna explode!! For several days I've been stucked in my own house!! I mean... no online, no money, no phone charge.. I'M HAVING DIFFICULTIES TO CONTACT ANYONE OUTSIDE MY HOUSE!!
However, my school final exam is done. I'm not 100% sure bout the scores, but.. I'm relieved. At least now I don't have to study and study, and also that I'll have more time to prepare for character design competition.
Btw, last wednesday, I went to an internet cafe to check my dA and Ymail. Then I read an offline message from my clan leader, said:
jacket design competitionand this is UNUSUAL. U see.. my clan currently is just a virtual clan which means that I've never meet any of them (eventhough I might will meet one of them later in highschool. He'll enter the same highschool as mine T.T). And, by having those jackets alive, it means that this virtual clan will become a real-life community? Hmph..
And those jackets will be sent to our own houses and ..... *fainted*
hyper mode on, believe me.. I'm still half-concious O.O~
For ur information, I was already thinking of abandoning the clan months ago. Why? Cuz I thought I wanted to have a healthy social-life (and in fact, not so healthy rite now =="), also that I thought, having an online-only clan would waste my time and money.. Cuz by being online for my clan it means I've got things I have to do for clan (I'm an active member there, and once became a leader of a squad), and the most important thing is that being with my clan, was more fun than being with my friends in real-life, sometimes. Especially that... (hate to tell this, but..) I have an (embarassing) weakness that is related to boys.. ==".. which is being the reason why I don't have any boys as friend in my school except Jesse (but he is a girly boy, love fashion designing with sexy outfits ==").. Yeah, somehow I can't be friendly to boys. It has been my habit since I was elementary school, since the first time I knew 'crush'. All this time I've always wanted to blame that ugly-proudy boy but, I also know that blaming= useless, and I wont have this 'weakness' if I don't makin it as a problem and react different.
Rite now, I really need somebody outside to talked to..
wishes:
-my phone refilled NOW w/ o delay >.<
-the facebook works
-my ebuddy works
-comic paper and 2H pencil fall to my lap
-a benQ or hp or even MacBook fall to my bed (heheh. It would be hurt if the fall to my lap XD)
-money rain
-a sane mind @.@
Ho yea, I remember about my friends' requests. OMG, I haven't finish any of both requests!! My target is this farewell camp (18-20 May). The design has no prob. I can work them up to morning (a bit insomnia+workaholic= insane. it is not healthy. seriously. actually I've recovered from insomnia. heheh), but the problem is...... the printing time. To print them I have to go to printing service, which actually is near my house, but it's open till 4 p.m only, that lately, I'm afraid I don't have enough time to fo that. First, it is all because of economic problem. My mom is currently out of money. She owed me 600k rupiahs. Second, my mom wont have time to pick me up to places I've got to visit. That is the cause why I often stucked at home with no internet except using my mom's dummy IM2. IM2, YOU ARE DUMMY DUMMY!! *get a hold of myself not to curse*.... another problem we have ladies and gentlemen~ =="
I guess I'll have to list all I must do these weeks. Soon.
Gonna check raditya dika's blog. Ja ne.
PS: *as if Lodi would read this blog XP. hope not.* sorry for not replying ur text msg. I'm currently out of phone charge or whatever it called in english. Gomenasaii to all including Huey-nii san. Heheh.
Labels: clan, competition, personal, school life, stupid
