Saturday, 11 September 2010
{ 9/11/2010 02:49:00 pm }
Oh man, finally I can post a new blog-post. And, I'm currently writting from Bali Handera's guest computer and the view from here is just great (I'll upload it as soon as I'm home). Oh well, nothing really outstandingly happen, here, at Bali. I wish I can write 'I surfed and oh the wave was awesome!' or 'Dude! I met a hottie at the beach!' or 'Man! My holiday here is TERRIFIC. And now I'm really tanned!', but no I can't. Or else, I lie. First reason that screw my holiday in Bali: it has been raining these days. I can't see sunsets, and I can't try Banana Boat of Flying Fish or Parasailing. Oh I wish I can play at the beach a little longer. I want to go home with a tanned skin and a personal satisfaction. Well, the second reason is because the difference of destination and wants among my dad, my mom, and me.
I can't prevent myself from thinking a lot this holiday.
BEWARE, the next paragraphs will seemed too stupid to be read, breaking down healthy mental, and twisting fragile paradigms. It's called as
picisan here. Argh I hate this. Sadly, I
should write about this. Why? Because I should.
I wonder if this is how people usually act. I don't know if I can say this as
falling in love.
And I don't want to sound sissy. But, honestly speaking I keep on thinking about him ever since he said he likes me and he misses me. I don't want to sound shallow. And heck no, I ain't shallow oh sorry for the disappointment. My friends have always said this and that, that he's good and bad, that we're not meant to be and stuffs, and also that I can definitely get a better one. Oh my, we haven't even start the relationship. Why bother? Well, see the bright side--they care about me. I don't know, I'm afraid that he's playing me, and that he isn't that into me, and.. stuffs.
How weird, that words were choking my head along the road I took from my room to this lobby, and now the words dissolves with the cold air around. Bzz.
I keep on thinking that this way of thinking, of mine, is human. Falling in love is human. Even when you fall in love to the wrong person. The explanation is just that when you let your heart fall to that wrong person, it is a sign that your logic is sleeping--sleeping I say, not die. Well, some people do have their logic die. Like most of sassy sissy girls who post TOO MUCH 'i love you, boy' 'i need you boy' 'boy you're my all' and worst post 'boy i miss you' that they have just met several hours or even minutes ago. Such girls with lust. I don't think in the next month they'll write the same thing with the SAME NAME. HAHA. Yucks. I just hate their way of living. Me? Oho this is how I live. This is how I think it's quite logical, and I hope so. I'm pretty much hating love stuffs, but shamefully, lately I can't stop thinking about this what-so-called
teenage love drama dilemma bullshits. Maybe now it's backfire *sob*.
I just wish I have a lot of money right now. And, I want to go home and polish my guitar skill and design skill and make plushies and make more money. I don't like this feeling.
Boy, I keep on wandering about you, and I, but DEFINITELY I don't want you to know. I know you are missing me, thank you. Me too. And I don't want you to know.
Oh why is this thing is more complicated to Maths?
I wish I can write better things. I wish I can write more. But, I think the receiptionist doesn't want me to stay any longer in front of this computer. So, write later.
Lastly, even though the view from here is good, I still prefer the view is a beach panorama, not mountains and hills. Haha.
Labels: family, holidays, stupid, travel, words
Tuesday, 6 April 2010
{ 4/06/2010 05:27:00 pm }
I guess now it is the time for me to
really posting
something worth to be posted here. Haha. Well, unfortunately I don't really have any physical things to be shared here. I think I would just go on writting my daily activities. Hehe.
So, today, I've been like doing nothing useful. Today isn't more effective than yesterday either (yes I know that's
bad. However, still, as usual I continually find new things :). JSYK, it's holiday for me (again) now, and it will last about 5 days long.
Today's weather is pretty much annoying. It's hot, and humid. It hasn't rained since this morning (as I know), but the air is sooo hot and wet. I'm perspirating and in the same time anything wet won't dry so soon because of the humidity (and my t-shirt got wet by the droplets from the edge of my has-just-been-washed hair strands. that was sucks).
Well, at least, today I've managed to push myself having the washings done. And, it's done. Phew. Today I've been being online for about.. maybe 5 hours or more. What did I do specifically anyway? I did chat, eat, take a shower, and facebook-ing, then browsing YouTube, twittering (much) and listen to my WMP. Anyway, I found 'Haru-yo, koi' from YouTube played by a user there named
Tomoliena and originally sung by Matsutoya Yumi. It's beautiful (in my opinion). The melody itself can describe the picturesqueness of spring (in Japan, Haru means Spring). I love the piano part. It may seemed like an old-fashioned song, but I personally like it. As I said, I love the piano part, playing the beautiful melodies.
Actually I was planning to practice guitar much today, and memorizing some hiragana characters (I've memorized some btw.
yeay for me! :D). But as the time went by, the longer I sit in front of this very monitor of mine, the more I procrastinate to get them done. The more sluggish I be. Geez. I don't want to be sluggish. No more.
Anyway, about laptop.. I will soon buy a new one
yippee! I'm planning to buy Dell Inspiron 1464 (thanks to Hana who indirectly led me to that laptop. haha) which can fulfill my requirements--such as ATIradeon or nVidia GeForce, paired with Core 2 Duo processor or higher and genuine Windows Vista OS included. Moreover, the outer appearance wasn't bad. It was close to perfect ♥. Unfortunately I can't include the photo here cuz it isn't available in Google Image search engine. The price you might ask? It's 7,2 million IDR I think (without promo or discount). Good thing that my budget is 7million :). I'm looking forward to see it in my own lap soon, as mine ♥.
Kay, now it's half past six already (I think), so I guess I should get off from this PC soon. If not, maybe I'll be stuck in front of here till 10 and forget practicing guitar. That would be worse for this already-sluggish day. Write soon (and better, I hope).
Labels: holidays, laptop, personal, stupid
Saturday, 9 January 2010
{ 1/09/2010 11:46:00 am }
Finally I can write again! For the whole 5 days I wasn't able to be online neither to reply text messages. Yeah, I've just came back from Singapore, with my family, and we enjoy the trip. It was quite exhausting and tiring for our legs to walk from one place to another place there, but within the time we took for walking from and to places, we saw many interesting things, plus accompanied by fresh air of Singapore, walking that far wasn't a problem.
Day 1
We were picked up by a van from my mom's big boss (and that was a good thing) to the apartment we were going to stay in. We stayed in Orchard Scotts and it was a pleasure living there; a clean, nice place, complete with room service, wide screen TV. The place was very comfortable to live in. We took a rest and packed out our luggages as soon as we arrived. I watched CSI: Miami, and Made (MTV program). At first we were confused on how to change the channel and things but finally the only one who mastered the TV was me. Muahaha.
In the evening, we ate dinner in Food Village in Takashimaya. Before having our dinner, we took some photos in front of Ngee Ann City, also visited Kinokuniya Book Store but didn't manage to buy a book because of the limited time--that my dad had made an appointment with my aunt to meet at Food Village. In Food Village I found fish-shaped dorayaki stand there. I bought it and.. it was juicy. Now I miss the fish-shaped dorayaki :(. There were also thin-sliced-fried potatoes satay. It was also delicious. Foods there ARE delicicous. However, I still prefer Surabayan foods, somehow. Maybe my tongue is already used to Surabayan foods XP.
Day 2
In the second day of our trip to Singapore, we had our breakfast first before we left apartment again to explore Singapore more. I took 1 glass of orange juice, 1 bowl of cereal, 1 pastry, and some scrambled egg. After finishing our breakfast we went to Sentosa. We took MRT from our apartment that is near to Newton MRT station. From Newton, we passed Orchard and Somerset to Dhoby Ghaut Interchange. Then we took North East Line to Harbour Front. Right after we went out from Harbour Front Station we entered Vivo City. We continued our journey to Sentosa and went there by sky train. Inside the sky train there was a Japanese family--I guess, because they were sound to speak Japanese for me. We went to Imbiah and took some photos there. Then my lil' bro, sis, also my dad and Robi played LUGE. I was tipsy--okay, not tipsy as I already know the exact meaning now but had kinda light motion sickness caused by the flu medicine I took in the morning so I didn't play LUGE along w/ them. After finished waiting for them playing LUGE, we watched 4D cinema. It was quite fun, that the seat we sat on could move along with the motions in the movie. But I still prefer the Pirates one that seats could produced water splash and could make us feel that we were really in the movie such as passed-by-insects-like feeling. Then we ate some hotdogs and continued our journey to Siloso by bus. Anyway, I found a hilarious thing in the bus:
In Siloso we visited Underwater World, visited the beach and went back to Vivo city. I've attached some photos I took in Siloso in the photo album above.
I found some interesting things in Vivo City. I bought a cute bag there, also bought some cute keychains for my friends. There's also Food Republic there and I ate Chicken Rice for dinner while Robi ate Hor Fun (I still don't know what actually is Hor Fun thou)
Day 3
This is the day when I made a stupid mistake. So we had our breakfast in apartment and my siblings swam in the morning. After taking a shower and getting ready, we went to Kinokuniya. My mom and I bought books there. I bought What I Talk About When I Talk About Running by Haruki Murakami. You can check out the book
here. I browsed more books there and I drooled (not literally yah). There are many great books, and comics. What a pity, Kinokuniya Book Store only had Alive manga till about.. volume 7 or 8, while Trimedia Book Store in Indonesia has had till maybe volume 14-17 already. Still, I was drooling, seeing so many books about illustrating, graphic design.. aww ♥. We continued walking to OG, and browsed clothes there. I found some promos for teens' clothes there but didn't purchase, cause, well.. the colors weren't colors that I actually like, also that I wanted to purchase a pair of pants, but pants there were too short! The promos were quite good--2 for S$ 20. Then we went to Plaza Singapore and I bought gifts for my friends and ought to pay total S$ 37.80. I was shocked that my money was already run out. My mom and Robi told me that my friend don't worth that much money that me myself hadn't even buy any cloth that day. I felt stress, guilty, and blamed myself. I ended up crying, seriously. Lessons I really learned: friends that I have don't worth that much money because they won't appreciate the gifts I bought with the limited money I got. Second: never buy any gifts for them again.
With the guilty feeling I carried on, my dad and I went to Singapore Art Museum (SAM) and I was once again disappointed. There was nothing interesting in SAM for me because I am interested in digital arts, not some historical arts. Plus I didn't get any useful catalog for Ce Huey and myself.
However, I was quite cheered up that my mom gave me more S$ 20 to buy new clothes (that as the matter of fact I didn't found any cloth that's match for me and didn't bought any)
For dinner we were treated eating at Bumbu Desa in Spore where my auntie manage. Then we spent the night, tired.
Day 4
Almost the last day that day. We went to Merlion Park and took some photos. After finished taking photos we went to Esplanade and explored around. We saw executed criminals with their last meal request photos along the hall to MRT. It was quite scary how some of them were executed by lethal injection, and some were executed by electric chair >,<. Next, we went to Suntec City Mall and had our lunch there. We also visited Fountain of Wealth and browsed clothes. As I said, I didn't find any clothes that suits me.
Day 5 - Last Day
My siblings and I went to sleep real late, enjoying night cartoon for the last night of the trip. We woke up late and they--my siblings went swimming as soon as we finished our breakfast. Me, accompanied my mom purchasing some goods to be brought home. We were already exhausted. In the afternoon we went to Changi Airport, and fortunately, my mom's working colleague was very kind that he ordered a van to pick us up so we wouldn't worry about carrying our heavy luggages in MRT to Changi. Things in Changi are really expensive that I couldn't buy a thing there. I tried to go online but the free computers there weren't working. Omg. Then we went boarding and got checked. Poor lil' sister, her bubble bottle were more than 100ml, and that was against the rule. The bubble bottle ended up in Changi's trash bin. The authorities were very mean. After having her bubble bottle disposed, she remained silent, hugging her teddy bear that she was still cheerfully played w/ my lil' bro before. The flight took 2 hours more, through bad weather (rain, fyi.)
It was a great experience there in Singapore. Plus, love the cheese cake. ♥ it. ♥ it. ♥ it. Aww, I think now I'm addicted to cheese cakee.. aww ♥♥♥~ gimme cheese cake!!
Labels: family, holidays, personal, travel, unique
Friday, 18 December 2009
{ 12/18/2009 07:59:00 pm }
Here's a lyric of Let This Go by Paramore whose song is beloved, by me :D. Man.. my internet connection is getting real sloOoOoOowWw.. while someone isn't being responsible for what he has done. Grr.
Maybe if my heart stops beating
It won't hurt this much
And never will I have to answer
Again to anyone
Please don't get me wrong because...
I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you
One day you'll get sick of
Saying that everything's all right
And by then I'm sure I'll be
Pretending just like I am tonight
Please don't get me wrong because...
I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you
Let this go
Let this go
I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you
But I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
Yet now I feel like I don't know you
Yeap yeap yeapp.. My spirit is back :). Now I'm on fire to workin out several plans I've made for this holiday. Support by prayers needed. Write later~
Labels: holidays, lyrics, music
Tuesday, 15 December 2009
{ 12/15/2009 10:38:00 pm }
So now I'm confuse. I've planned several.. well, around 10++ things to do this holiday. I've been through my early-holiday days, and till now I ended up doin nothin worthy.. The guilty feeling of mine starts blaming myself and force me to think more seriously. Seriously. Well, yeah =p.
These are plans I've made for this December holiday:
1. Establish a company. Objective: making money.
2. Improving my guitar skill
3. Improving my English ability
4. Learn Japanese language
5. Mastering 'Secret by Jay Chou' piano
6. Learn to be discipline
7. Improve Math
8. ImproveMandarin
9. Shape up my abs
Well, those in the list are not 10 actually. Yeah.. they aren't 10, or even more. He he. But, they are still difficult to accomplish!! Grr.
As I grow older.. well I don't know if any other teens ever feel this way, but.. I keep on feelin more stupid. The more I learn, the more I find myself not enough--not knowledgable enough, not a good enough guitarist, not a good enough artist, not a good enough.. student. That feelings, really add up my regret. And, honestly now I ended up.. hopefully not but; I am stuck with my nature: laziness. Grr. That nature is instead my habit of easily getting distracted. Awh man.. get it right.. It's funny how I want to success while I don't want to go through the process while actually success is the process.
Now I do want hats, clothes, McD's cheeseburger, waffle, milkshake, mango juice, belts, shoes, notebooks, a laptop, LG cookies, iPod, fashionably clothes, fashionably accecories, good novels, terang bulan, and many more.. in the same time #freakingthoughts XP. I guess the only way out for me is just: pray.
Write later~
Labels: holidays, personal, stupid
