from the rocks i cried, to the sky i learn to fly. ♥

Sunday 30 May 2010 { 5/30/2010 10:31:00 pm }

I wish I can write better. I wish my vocabulary is richer. *sob*.

I'm becoming more confuse and more confuse about things around. I confuse about what's right and what's wrong, which's lie and which's truth, which's worth and which's not worth.. Mbrfgh.

Roughly describing, now my mind is like a tangled yarn. Abstract, and.. indescribable, too many things that is inside.. I even hardly able to think fluently about the next English vocab I have to write.

Argh.

You know, when past regrets are combined with visions, what will be resulted is a messy mind. Like how I am now. It's.. torturing mentally :(

Maybe future does not be able to be combined with past after all.

Labels: personal

Wednesday 26 May 2010 { 5/26/2010 04:08:00 pm }

With no further ado, here it is.. The Only Exception lyrics. A song that composed beautifully by Paramore. You can search the mp3 in Google yourselves.

The Only Exception - Paramore

When I was younger I saw my daddy cry and curse at the wind
Broke his own heart and I watched as he tried to reassemble it
And my momma swore that she would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised I'd never sing of love if it does not exist

But darling you are the only exception

Maybe I know somewhere deep in my soul that love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways to make it alone
Keep a straight face
I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable distance
And up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well you are the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality but I can't let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

You are the only exception

I'm on my way to believing

Labels: lyrics, music, personal

Sunday 23 May 2010 { 5/23/2010 06:12:00 pm }

Yes I know this isn't the right time to post a new blog. FYI, tomorrow should be Math and Sociology test, but here I am, blogging. Umm, I need to write down what I've been pondering about for this whole-past-week anyway..

So, about the guitar competition.. it is cancelled. Tragically. My trainer quit training me and so it automatically means that I would not ever experience that competition. A.. disappointment for me, but it is already happen. So 'let go' is not really a difficult word to be done about. However, I still love my guitar. Not having anymore guitar course doesn't mean not learning guitar furthermore. The difference is just that starts from now on, I'll walk my own path, alone. Without anymore guidance from my past training. I still wish I would post about how fun, how great my feeling is in the competition and furthermore about new experiences I get there, but it won't happen anyway..

Lately, maybe being influented by things I've captured with my five senses, I start to dream high. Real high. My dreams of being a successful person in the future, to be such an elegant, respected, professional-looking woman, has emerged more clear in my visualization. I mean in my mind, as I visualize. I can feel how satisfied will I be after I reach what I've been dreaming about. By dreaming more, the more I know that I have many purposes (hehe). By having those purposes, the more hope I plant. The more hope I plant, the higher my hope are, the more I see the beauty of this very world. And, by seeing how beautiful this world is, the more I love, life. Yes, at least I have a future.

I myself am tryin' to pursuit my own dreams by the way. Well, I hope the fact is the same as my opinion. Well I ain't really doing well at school.. Frankly said, my grades are sooo average (thou average is already good enough in my highschool) that they don't satisfy me. Despite of knowing this, I have never studied hard. What I've been doing all this time is--honestly--wasting my time with online activities, and play.. like now. Lately I ponder more about what's worthed to be done and not. Aand, you know what? I put 'school' in the NOT WORTHED list.

I wish I can transfer to Seattle's college faster. As I still try to make the best, here, thou.

Anyway.. random art-activities update. This is the current project I'm working on--colouring *yeay with low tone*. This is a request from Odi and this is only 80% of the total progress. Update soon. Enjoy the yellowness.

Labels: competition, guitar, music, personal, school life

Friday 14 May 2010 { 5/14/2010 12:57:00 pm }

Yess, I am suffering what called as artist block. O M G. And to be honest now I'm too confuse of what should I do! I'm afraid things will be a mess that my beloved one--my mom--has trusted her career upon me! So I actually have to design an advertisement for the company she has been worked for. Aand, till now.. what comes up in my mind is just a basic, mundane, boring design for this advertisement I've been assigned about. ARGH. And and, I have no time left! It has to be finished tonite!! Anyway, I found this article by instant-searching and here I copy-paste the content. I hope this can be helpful, for ya who read.

How To Fight Artist's Block

Sometimes, the hardest part about being an artist is the inevitable block that arrives unexpectedly. There’s nothing worse than feeling like you’ve lost your momentum and creativity. Don’t worry, it happens at some point to everyone! Here are some tips to help it dissipate:

1. Set goals:
Force yourself to set a goal of creating ‘X’ number of items. Even if you have to copy a previous project, working in your chosen medium will get you back in the swing of things and get the inspiration flowing. Often times, exploration of past themes will motivate you to see things in a new way. This is how art series are often born; reinvigorating old ideas and viewing them in a new light. It’s okay to build off the past to create motivating steps towards the future.

2. Search for inspiration:
Sitting in front of a blank computer screen or canvas can be painful and nervous tension will only make your block harder to break. Inspiration doesn’t always arrive when it’s needed; sometimes we have to search for it. Going to a museum, visiting a gallery, meeting with friends, taking snapshots, using Google Image Search, or scanning Flickr and creating your own page of favorite images can get the ideas flowing.

3. Keep a journal:
Set a goal to jot down thoughts, ideas, or if you’re clueless about what to write about, make a list you had for breakfast or the first thing you thought of when you woke up; anything is better than nothing. Inspiration is everywhere! Doodle, make lists, just do something. Chances are, when you’re flipping back through the pages in a few few days / weeks / months, inspiration will strike.

4. Don’t worry:
Anxiety will further dampen any creativity. The more you worry, the worse the block will become. If you can’t seem to produce any work, view the period as a mini-vacation. Often, pulling yourself away from the work for awhile will often restore energy and focus. It’s ironic that often when you’re at your busiest, working hard at a job or task that doesn’t include your art, you can’t wait to get back to it. Yet, when you have all the free time in the world, the lack of stimulation can make it difficult to produce anything of real value.

5. Focus on one thing at a time:
It’s easy to get overwhelmed thinking about how much needs to get done. A series isn’t built in a day, and for that matter, a riveting piece of art rarely is, either. Sometimes a task feels so overwhelming that it seems easier to not even start. Don’t sabotage yourself! I’m onto my third series this year because I never quit– I take a step back, assess the situation, take a short break, and launch right back into the work. You won’t get very far if your work is sitting in the corner half-finished, collecting dust. Start with the basics; make an initial sketch of concepts, create a mood board, focus on getting started. Each step forward is one step closer to completion.

6. Take a class:
A renewed perspective can have an amazing impact on the soul. Local art schools and colleges usually offer evening and / or non-accredited courses. Assignments from another person have the ability to jump-start the completion of an art project; the limited guidelines can help dissipate the open-endedness of possibilities that have the ability to create anxiety.

7. Use downtime to market yourself:
If you can’t make new art, use the time to market yourself more effectively. Research galleries and calls for artists online. Sometimes you can even email galleries about your work directly instead of sending postcards. Update your website and online portfolio. Connect with other artists and share your resources. Perhaps they can recommend galleries that are interested in work like yours, provide inspiration, and swap art calls. I’ve secured some of my best shows by staying in contact with fellow peers.

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Labels: projects, requests, tips