from the rocks i cried, to the sky i learn to fly. ♥

Wednesday 24 June 2009 { 6/24/2009 11:58:00 pm }

It has been a quite long time for me to not write I guess.. Haha. These days I've been.. too busy to write. Yearbook still haven't finished yet (omg), and I've spent lot of time practice my drawing skill ( I am a total NOOB!! My drawings--after I look it back, actually compare it to those artists' pieces.. eheheh) and refresh a bit.. I start--somehow, and this is under my conciousness--back to social life.. This morning I walked with wallmax crew to PTC, watched Transformer 2 (I still think the title is Terminator.. IT IS A TOTAL DIFFERENT BETWEEN THEM!! Yeah, my brain has messed around everywhere.. I can't think clear and sane again.. GOD, help me) and last night I misspelled the name Vanessa--a little girl in wallmax crew--Veronica. Baka no ryuu. Baka baka. I really have to cure or even reconstruct my brain

Also.. here is my final exam result. Not fully satisfied, but.. it's already makes me glad..

National Exam:
Indonesian Language 8.80
English Language 9.60
Mathematics 9.00
Science 7.75

Total 35.15 out of 40.00

(that's quite high.. but yea, I guess this year student's score around Indonesia are high upon the sky

)

School Final Exam:
Religion
Written: 9.07
Practical: 9.60

Civics
Written: 9.11

Indonesian Language
Practical: 7.25

English
Practical: 10.00

Science
Practical: 9.85

Social Study
Written: 8.59

Art
Written: 9.26
Practical: 9.60

P.E
Practical: 8.50

I.T
Written: 9.38 (I was quite sure that I made it perfectly.. So, I made mistakes??)
Practical: 10.00

Javanese
Written: 8.56
Practical: 10.00

Mandarin Language (or you can say Chinese)
Written: 8.56
Practical: 8.60

total for written 62.90 out of 70.00
total for practical 83.40 out of 90.00

Ahaha.. I feel like my workhard for about 1 week wasn't a waste. Proud of it.

And because my scores are high upon the clouds (not the sky), my mom decided to buy me a new laptop (my dad still consider it as not enough. but my mom persuade him that my scores are already great, and he agreed to pay 50% of te price. khekhekhe). I haven't got it yet, but I've survey the types, think over the price, examine whether it has core 2 duo processor, high vga card, high RAM, high hardware capability, high vista or not, bluetooth, and so on.. I've marked several types which fulfill my requirements. Later when there's already the money and time, I would like to go to the shop.

Last thing.. my insomnia (and brain concetration and sanity) is getting worse. Two days ago I couldn't sleep for a whole night till morning.. In the morning, I took some photos from the rooftop. I submitted one in dA. But it went into Scraps category (i've edit it 3 times--even more, but it didn't change the category!!! I even changed the title!! But it still in Scraps category until now :tsk:)

Btw, I've add some emoticons there!!

. But it still like not satisfying enough for me that these emoticon system is not yet efficient.. it has no code system that make it typeable.. also the emos are not having complete expression types.
I'll edit it and improve it soon. Life is flat w/o emotions

Labels: codes, deviant art, laptop, school life

Thursday 11 June 2009 { 6/11/2009 12:50:00 am }

money or love?

You should have heard this question hundred times in ur life don't you? Then ask yourself that question. Most people would answer love. And usually they got 'wise' reasons upon that. Even I would answer the same thing.. but.. your answer would be different when you are truly in the condition.

If you choose love..

Are you sure you can live with no money in hands? Are you sure you can survive without jealousy upon your friends who are easily get what they want in the same time they want it? Are you sure you can survive with the shame that you are labeled as the one who is.. poor cuz you rarely can watch movies along with them, and many of them... are slowly.. forgetting, and don't care?

If you choose money..

Are you sure you can live in a complete house with PS4, newest MacBook, Blackberry, unlimited cash flowing in your hands, but you never even able to feel what it is like to beloved? Are you sure you would get the happiness that you have been searching for, by spending all of your money?

which one would you choose?
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I asked in Y!Answer.. and got 4 answers total in 6minutes. But, then I found this one.. and this, helps me... even a bit.

by Vanessa

Love off course....Money is important but it cant keep you happy alone...Having love is more important to me than anything else....having more money might add to the happiness but happiness wont come if there is money and no love....But if there is money problem and u have love too, you can be happy..you might just sometimes wish you had more money...Money can only add to ones happiness if he or she is already happy because of the love they have in their life..If you don have love and only money, you will feel like throwing away all the money..the jealousies you are talking about are all small ones...getting jealous of friends etc...who doesnt get jealous..these are small momentary jealousies...they don make ur life miserable...you always hope that you would try to make more money..But if you dont have love , and you see others having it, it really makes you very miserable...Everybody wants to make money and people try their best to make as much as they can...Money is good...I feel one should be happy with whatever money one makes...because we all try our best..whatever we get should be appreciated by us and we should be content with what we have...

ありがとう　ございます　ね　vanessa-san..

I choose.. 愛　:)

Labels: personal, words

Saturday 6 June 2009 { 6/06/2009 05:29:00 pm }

Um.. I just like this entry for my reference.. Found by surfing deviantart and clicking, and shouting. lol (hyper mode: ON)

posted in deviantart by vael66
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Drawing with the right tools

P A R T 1

Here is my guide to drawing with the right tools. I hope you all will find it helpful. I think this will be in parts. This is part 1.

The Outline
When you are drawing, you want to be able to erase. (I'll cover erasers in Part 2) You normally use pencil. That is a good idea! But if your scanner is horrible (like mine) or you want to make your picture neat and clean you should trace the pencil with ink.
In the beggining, in order to get used to the whole tracing thing. I used a cheap black pen that you can find just about anywhere. It is more like a pencil than marker.
Well, if you have ever drawn with them you know that they erase some. That would only be a beginner's tool.Recently I have started using a fine point pen that is like a very thin marker. The one that works the best is probably the PRECISE V5. Extra fine. Rolling ball. It's from the company of Pilot. (I'm actually looking at my pen as I am typing this.
The pen has a metal tip and a few small holes to let ink out. It is easy to use and draws a thin line.
My guidebook that I bought at Barnes and Nobles suggests:
RotringFaber-Castekk
TGI-SStaedtler Marsmatic 700
Sakura Micron Pigma
Copic Multiliner
Pilot drawing pen

So that ends my ink section. Read Part 2 for how to erase pencil under pen and how to erase just pencil.

P A R T 2

Here is Part 2 of my whole drawing tips thing. This will cover erasing.Erasing Plain Pencil
I bet a lot of you out there have bad days with drawing. So you end up erasing like crazy. By the end you have no idea where your lines are. While tracing it over with pen helps really erasing works better. (See part one for pen tips)
Some of you like cheap art supplies and some like expensive ones. Well, cheap is always better if it has good quality! If you go to Staples or CVS you will see tons of erasers. Do not pick the pencil caps or tiny ones, you'll be getting a hand cramp. Stay clear from the pink ones. Use white. From my experiences and from reading a bunch of books about drawing, I know that white is better. However, an eraser can only do so many things. If you dig into the paper, that's it. I suggest drawing lightly. Your hard lines should be drawn when you are certain that you want that line there. I don't suggest using hard lines though.
Okay, so you've perfected your drawing in pencil. Now it's time to trace with pen. But when you are done, you have pencil lines.
WARNING: Wait until the pen has fully dried and then you may erase. It makes sure that it doesn't smear.
WARNING: When drawing, do not brush eraser shavings with your hand! It will smear the pencil and what used to be a white paper will turn a shade darker. Either blow the shavings away, shake the paper out, or use a soft thing to brush them away (a small unused paint brush works very nicely.)
There you have it! I'm not sure what part 3 will be about but you've got to wait a little for that. If I get a lot of viewers I'll put this under my devinations.
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And these are the original posts links:

Drawing with the right tools

Drawing with the right tools part 2

Labels: deviantart, drawing, tips

{ 6/06/2009 03:31:00 pm }

I've been surfing the deviantart, to check out sasha's (an artist in deviantart) artworks. Cuz I got her tutorial, and wonder how her artworks are.. and, I found this journal, written by also an artist there, kuridoki (the username).

Here, I quote her journal..

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Updates and Ramblings

Ever had the experience of looking back at your old work and going "Oh god, the SHAMEEEE"? I imagine most artists go through this stage once they've hit a certain level of experience. But, honestly, it's also one of the most fun parts of being an artist too, I think.

But let's take this a step further.

I don't know how many of you might feel like I do when working on a piece. But I'll just simplify it for now:

Step 1:

Rough sketch work, gets you pumped up for working on the piece. Feels good, man. lol

Step 2:

Start your line work, or whatever your work process involves. There's still a good feeling of excitement and anticipation.

Step 3:

You've gone in pretty deep into the work. But as you stare at your piece for hours and hours, little bubbles of questionable feelings start appearing.

Step 4:

You've finished the work. And you're pretty damn happy. It's your most detailed piece yet.

Step 5:

You keep looking at the work. Slowly, little mistakes and disparities start popping up. You never realized them while working.

And thus starts the slow decent into madness. You start getting more and more unhappy with the work until you can't really remember why you liked it in the first place.

You start a new piece eventually, go back to Step 1, rinse and repeat.

Different people will probably experience this to different levels, I don't know. Depending on how positive you are, you could see this as a source of motivation in improving yourself, but on the other hand you'd never be satisfied, ever.

Any of you ever felt like this? I imagine a few of you might.

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Yeah, I have. Lol.

Right now I am living the prophet which says:

The grass is always greener on the other side

In my case, I see peoples.. my friends, seems like having more talent, in art, also in guitar.. than me. I don't know the fact. Well, the fact is that, now I'm feelin I am not good enough in drawing. And evenmore in guitar. But, I guess, from kuridoki's journal up there, it is normal. It is.. human. Humans never satisfy. And I am a human :)

I hope I can online more.. and become more active in deviatart. I really love art.. and interested to art community.

You know.. I've foud maaaaany talented young artists in deviant. Cool. And, not that I want to be in list of young talented artists (omg. I guess I have to practice my grammar.. MORE. << see.. I have no idea it is a right order of adjective or not. Heheh. Nvm) but I want to draw better and better and make prints in such a young age. That I'm now.. almost 15. Grreat. I'm growin older. Hahah. In other side, I can't wait for highschool~

New environment, and new friends I guess.

Oh well.. I found another deviant to deviantwatch added =3

Labels: deviant art, school life

Thursday 4 June 2009 { 6/04/2009 11:29:00 pm }

So.. I got up late, as usual. Heheh. And then, I had guitar course. Ahh.. my guitar skill has decreased a lot.. and.. I was down because of it. But.. as a nanas, I choose not to let myself being down for a longer time. If I am not good enough to play guitar, then practice!! Practice till I am good enough to play a guitar!! Till I master it.. thats it.

Fortunately.. and I worked as an usher for my church's bday ceremony. Why I call it a fortunate one? Cuz by joining usher team, I got the precious Message. You know, things that was spoken by evangelist or pasteur there..

The speaker was speaking about Moses, Aaron, and Joshua. He said in the start that each of us might be living as Moses, Aaron, of Joshua. Or, a person can live with 3 of them. Moses in office, Joshua in struggles, and Aaron in Church. Moses, whom lead Israel from Egypt to the Promised Land.. (I don't know what is it in English hehe. Gomen) Joshua, who never give up in condition that people have given up, and Aaron.. was the one who unpopular.. but if we pay attention to him in Bible, he was a very humble man. He was working harder than Moses, but Moses was the one who got praises and becoming popular. He was the one who did the chores.. He can thinkin why he wasn't the one who got praised, the one who was popular that in fact he worked harder than Moses, and even speak for Moses. But he didn't. It needs a humbleness to be like that.

In a war with Amalekh, if Moses raised his arms, Israel would win. Vice Verse. And, the fact was that Israel won. It wasn't because of Joshua or Moses only. Or even Aaron or Hur who was supporting Moses.. If there wasn't Moses, Israel must have lost. If there wasn't Joshua, no one would be the one who fight and beated up Amalekh. And if there weren't Aaron and Hur, Moses' arms would not survive being up for hours. So they needed each other.. There was no the 'most' one. Each of them needed each other.

I learned, that being the most one is not the most important. The important is how you can be useful for others, not being used by. As long as you do your best, that is the best. No need to compare ourselves to other, cuz if we compare ourselves to other, then we are growing to be other. We won't that happen would we?

Tomorrow, I will do my best to be better. Better in guitar, drawing, as a friend, and being better in life. I will do my best to change my bad habits. Haha. I really have a bunch of bad habits. Lol. I really want to be better.. and cuz I want it so much I would do so much to reach it.. Ganbatte ryuu-chan!! ^^

Labels: personal, words